.:Wedding:.

If you love someone enough, you have to learn to let them go right? Of course, if you don't, it makes it hard to ever fully move on.

You really did look stunning in your dress you know. Your dress made of white lace, your veil pulled down over your face. There was a small smile. That smile carried both happiness and fear. If I don't stop staring at you soon, I'm sure you'll think I'm losing it. I'm not losing it I swear. I just think you're even more beautiful than the day I first met you. I wish you nothing but happiness, but I wish I could be the one marrying you. Then again, long time ago, I knew better. I knew I'd never marry you. That'd you'd never truly be mine. But I still hoped right? I still dreamed. I prayed I'd have that chance. I wish you'd stop staring at me in the mirror too. The longer you look at me with that smile, the harder it is for me to force myself to tell you goodbye.

Soon you'll give me one last hug. You'll walk thru those doors and that's it. That'll be the last time I'll see you. The last time I'll hear your voice. After today, he'll become your everything, your one and only. After today, you won't need me anymore. Even though I'm too proud to tell you that I still need you. I may be older than you, but I still need you. I'm not sure I'm ready to let you go. I'm not sure I'm ready to let you go. To see you marry him. I want to be with you. I always have. Even though I knew better, even though I knew it wasn't meant to be, I still wanted it. I wanted to keep you, just for me.

I just stand here, watching you turn around. You give me this look. A look that tells me it's time to go. I feel your arms wrap around me. I'm so reluctant to embrace you back, for the fear I may not be able to let go if I do. But I do it anyway. It's all I can do to fight back the tears. We break apart and reach for your bouquet of flowers. With a painful smile, I hand them to you, choking back the tears. I feel you give my hand a light squeeze. Your mother comes to the room where she leads you away, thanking me for being your friend for all these years. I give a small bow, the tears now escaping from my eyes.

It's time for me to say goodbye to all I've ever known. We've been together for a long time. I'm still not ready to let you go. I don't think I will ever fully let you go. But as long as you're always smiling, and always happy, then I think, it'll be easier for me. I leave the room several minutes after you. I see you about to walk down the aisle with your dad by your side. I'm not going to stay. It's too hard for me. I turn and silently walk towards the front doors of the church.

I hope you know I will really miss you. And that I love you, and will always love you.